tangents

can't sleep

calc exam tomorrow

i can't wait till harry potter on friday, the day after tomorrow

i'm getting howl's moving castle to read from the library while i'm reading potter

annemarie, kc, sarah and me saw this girl with gravity defying boobs with fantastic cleavage after we saw howl's moving castle

we're all straight

but we went up to her and said

"we're all strait...but you have fantastic boobs"

she was weirded out, yet flattered.

perhaps i should get a tattoo that starts near my shoulders and drapes slightly over my boobs

my dream life that i know wouldn't really work out, but would be neat:

i would ride around the south american countryside with a beat up motorcycle in a boy cut black tank top with my goldfish on my shoulders slightly showing on my way collecting plants. my hair is long. curly, but not frizz, i'm doing this in november. it's tied in a very loose and low ponytail i have aviator goggles, no glasses (my eyesight is perfect) the sun is shining. things are clear. i have a journal stained with tea in my bag. a paperback collection of a few neruda poems. i curse for not having a radio. i wave at children in plain striped shirts. i'm not attached to anything, anyone. i would like to have a real shower with hot water. not just "hot" water generated by water passing through two bare wires. i've been there for two years now. perhaps i will go back to the states in a few months. i have a plant presser/dryer in a box, bulging over the motorcycle. like a pack mule. only rusty.

i didn't mean to write that much. the cliches just kept on coming.

22 days until taiwan

i can't stand it.

marketplaces, the smell of fresh and rotting fruit, burning incense and candles at red temples, stone lions, streets crowded just black hair, game shows, spices, car exhaust, palm trees, mango trees, banyan trees, neon lights, rounded characters, random english, subtitled and dubbed imported cartoons, grandma's stale perfume, butter from bakeries, glowing jade on velvet, orchids...so many orchids..., lizards, cockroaches, burning sun, monsoon, typhoon, hurricane, birds, mopeds, metros, zhishan stop, hospitals, fires, red beans, ice, air conditioning, solitude, jasmine, tea, jasmine tea, iced jasmine tea...

22 days till i get to see formosa for the first time through the eyes of the white boy i'm accompanying.

i just can't wait.